As I sit here in the office facing this 17" PC, many things run thru' my mind. I felt awkward because I kept thinking how come I am thinking about my life at such a time and place. I mean in the office? When I have work to do and things to update. Somehow I couldn't focus on it and I still and do think about my life.

How is it gonna be for me in the coming years? What have I achieved so far? Honestly, I am a very simple person; on the whole that is. I am contented with what I have and who I have around me. So now, it struck me that what if I had wanted more in life? I would want more but the question is - HOW? WHEN? On the economy side, living life in Singapore is very tough. Everything is so expensive. I was listening to the news on radio today and somehow it was said that Singapore was ranked no. 5 in Asia and 13 in the world as one of the most EXPENSIVE country to live in despite its size on the global map. Imagine that!

So with the economy and cost of living so very high, I find so hard to keep up and earn more $$$ to provide more for myself and my family. I am aware that all it takes is just more work and effort. But for how long? It's been 8yrs since I left the school bench and fought hard in the working industry trying to earn a living enough for myself and my family and yet I am already feeling so tired. I want to upgrade myself and I have been finding ways to earn more than what I already have. Somehow, everytime there's hope, it seemed so near yet so far. All because of the financial status. That's really a big issue for me.

Being the main breadwinner of the family and taking charge of settling all the domestic bills plus other miscellaneous charges that comes around, its not easy. I am just a middle income earner. I have not taken into consideration the fact of how it could have been more tough if I were to be married. Of course I wanna be a great wife to my future husband and the best mommy to my children - but can I do it? It sounds pretty negative and yes I know that I should take the day as it comes but at times one can't help it to just stop in the middle of running your fast paced life and ponder on what it is going to be like in the near future. To add to that, we only live life once.
On a happier note - Life is too short to be worrying. Live it up!

This entry is sooOOOOOo long winded. I am surprised that I can blog like this. My gawd. Whatever it is, life goes on and yes I will still be working and earning a monthly salary and still be a daughter to my dad, a sister to my siblings, a friend to my friends and the list goes on. To come and think again, I still do pin a hope - A hope that maybe one fine day, my life can take a turn for the better, where I can do anything I can without worries. Insya'allah. :)

Tomorrow is showtime. My body is aching from all the training since Monday. I hope it pays off. I am missing Abg Tofik. It's gonna be 4 days that we have not met nor talk much. Only exchange of smses and short phonecalls. I can't wait for Saturday.

:: Thought of the day ::
"The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up..."