Marah salah tak marah pon salah.

I guess I just have to resign myself to fate. Fate which brought me to people like him. Him who doesn't seem to care about anything or anyone except for himself. It's of no use trying to point out who have tolerated more but not even having a single sense of shame or respect for oneself - that's alot to bear you know and I still have no clue why you aren't even sane enough to think about that.

Even though I am not you, I feel sympathetic towards you. I pity you. I really do. I wonder how you see your path that you are sowing or do you even know which direction you are heading to. *slaps forehead* I don't even know why I am blogging about this. But what triggered me to blog was after the conversation I had with Bestie.

I had told her about it... and yes she felt upset too but somehow, she was always there to wake me up and tell me to just let it be. Leave it in the hands of Allah. I have nothing to lose really - which to me is so true. The anger that has awaken in me was due to the fact that I could not accept or believe that you are such an impossible individual. You can really drive a person up the wall and I wonder if you would drive anyone to their grave. Astaghfirullah....

On the other hand, my dear ones are really feeling so upset about this. Again they have told me that I need to do something about it. That I really must take action. That I mustn't let a person like you off so lightly after all the trauma that you have put me thru'. Peha kanan dicubit, peha kira pon terasa jugak. I am still wondering why can't we settle this amicably. Then again, it seems so impossible to work things out with an individual like you. You chose the hard way out instead of the easy way. Why and for what?

You are out of my life and I intend to keep it that way but because of the unfinished business which you left behind, why is it that I have to clear it up? I wonder what you do if you were in my position. Coz if I were you, I would be so ashamed of myself. I would be responsible for the actions I have done. I would at least try to make up for whatever things or whoever feelings I have hurt. That's because I have a conscience. Do you?

So I will leave to it Allah. HE has the best way to put things right and around. The aftermath of things that's going to happen next, I leave it to my dear ones. I don't wish to interfere anymore. I let them settle this for me. I had enough. I want to carry on my life as usual and would not want to feel anymore anger within me. It sux.

:: Thought of the day ::
"Everything has been said before, but since nobody listens we have to keep going back and beginning all over again."