I was happy when my fever was gone for good and thought that I was on the road to a complete recovery given a few days of recuperation. I was so wrong.

Got caught in the rain last nite while I was on my way home to meet Haney. I was lucky to have almost reached my destination but nevertheless, the downpour was heavy and yes I was wet. Not to the bones but still wet. Me and Haney talked over dinner @ LJS. Whatever it is, I hope all will go well for you. First thing first, you need to sort out somethings okay girlfriend? My prayers are with you and yes I am sure you will get thru all this. Who doesn't have problems rite?

So after the short talk over dinner, we went our separate ways and I headed home only to land myself in frustration. Like I said, who doesn't have problems. I had my fair share and it didn't came at a good time. Especially when I am unwell and all wet. Whatever crosses my path at that time sent my blood up to the boiling point and there I was talking on the phone and whinning away to Abg Tofik who is already so tired from his reservist duties. I feel uberly lousy all over and wasn't sure how to react.

Not to mention that I got a fair share of an earful of things being said to me. A lengthy one and somehow as I listened on, I went into a daze. My head started throbbing and the only thing I felt like doing at that point of time was to just close my eyes and not to wake up. It's funny sometimes when I see myself comforting my gfs on their problems and making them see so much positivity when I can't even handle myself. I am also human. I do fall. It's just that nobody knows...until of course I blog it down here like what I am doing rite now.

Amidst the frustration, I hung up with Abg Tofik, took my hot shower, swallowed the medicine and forced myself to sleep. Lucky thing I manage to sleep o/wise it will be a nite of insomnia for me - which in this case, will only make my already sick self get worse.

Then this morning when I woke up, my face is so bloated. Eyes all red and a swelling nose. Much phlegm was in my throat and the dry cough makes my chest feel so tight. Still, I force myself to get up and get ready for work. The weather seems fine, I thought. As I make my way to work, droplets of water started falling. Heavy ones. Ah huh...it rained and I was caught in it - AGAIN. Good thing that I had my raincoat and I made it to work without getting soaked to the bones.

So here I am at work, whining away in the blog and I have no idea when if I can ever recover on time as I'm so looking forward to the weekends where there's so much to do. Abg Tofik just sent me and sms saying that he will be leaving for his field exercise in 2hrs time and will return to camp on Friday. Until then, I will not be able to communicate with him. I am feeling so lousy all over right now and I so really need him by my side but that's not gonna happen. I just hope that he will come back soon.

Read: I think I need a good cry and let it all loose.

:: Thought of the day ::
"The fear of life is the favourite disease of the 20th Century..."