I'm sad but at peace.
I'm happy but worried.
I'm angry but cool.
I'm human.
That's the feelings I had today as I go thru the moments I had earlier. Tapa's death still lingers on my mind. It's not just about losing a good friend but his demise had got me reminded of arwah mommy. She left the same way. Without any goodbyes. Just like that and they are gone. Thats what making me sad but I am at peace as I know that Allah loves them more.
As I see how most of us are living our life on a fast lane, I realised that we missed out on many things that are beautiful and ought to be appreciated. On the other hand, most things and people in our lives too, had made and caused us to live our life on a fast lane. So they compliment each other. It's only a matter of how each individual looks and handles it.
Abg Tofik came over my place earlier today and we watched DVD together. He got himself and me a cup of bubble tea while I served him Bapak's specialty - Nasi goreng pedas topped with a hot telor goreng. Then later on, we headed to Kintamani Indonesian Restaurant @ Furama Riverfront Hotel for our lavish dinner. Compliments from my sweet JiranZzZ. He gave the treat for me and Abg Tofik as a gesture of a belated birthday present. Kita dua makan sampai perot naik kembong and Abg Tofik had to make some silly jokes till we both can hardly laugh as our stomach were too full. After dinner, we headed down to Cineleisure and booked a movie room to watch "Rogue Assasin" just to kill time before we headed home. I'm happy.
Now whilst going thru' all that, what worries me is bestie. She hasn't been in good shape since yesterday. She's been feeling down about her cousin's accident and Tapa's death and this adds up to her condition. Her fever hasn't subside since then and I really don't know what to do. Had wanted to go over and bring her to the hospital but she assured me that she be ok and will seek help if her condition worsens. *cross fingers* I really hope she recuperate and get well soon. This is worrying.
What makes me so angry was my stepmother. 13yrs living with her and I still can't understand her ignorance to respect for guests. She just blow her top as when she feel like it. Scream and shout when she wants to and simply don't give a damn to whose ears her words are falling on to. It gets me on my nerve most of the time but like I said; It's been 13yrs and so yeah I am used to it. But I don't know for sure how long more I can last.
I'm cool for now.
On another note, whilst Abg Tofik had his boys' nite out yesternite, I kept myself occupied. Met Love and ewOk and we sat down at StarBucks talking over Ice Signature Chocolate, Green Tea Frap, Camomile Tea and a plate of Choc Amer. Love was pretty sick. Suara rock and there she was coughing away and masih teringin lagik nak makan Choc Amer. I had to relent. Coz I truely understand how it feels not being able to eat something you crave for.
Right after that, we headed down to Henderson waves. I went like, "Henderson waves? Nak! Nak! Jom!" And off we went. The place was really cool and yeah we went crazy and took quite a number of pictures. Awaiting for Love to upload and mine too. Amidst all those, I forgotten my restlessness for a while. Thanks Love for the nite out. I can at least hang myself like that and let loose all the restlessness out!
That's Love & ewOk going crazy after eating the Choc Amer with a painful throat! Ekekekeke...
On another another note, I know I'm late at this, but wishing all Indians a very HAPPY DEEPAVALI!
And on another another another note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all the October babies! Raya dah nak abish, tak lama lagi tahun baru plak. I can't wait for 2009.
:: Thought of the day ::
"The perfect normal person is rare in our civilization"
