Off days were spent well; except the dried and folded laundry is not kept in the wardrobe yet and my soiled laundry is not done yet. How to? It's been raining for the past few days. Wet wet weather. Sampai nak riding pon mak tak sanggup. But when it comes to work, rain or shine kena ride jugak sebab mak betul malas nak naik public transport and compete with all those morons for seats. Chet.

A short talk in the cab yesternite with Abg Tofik turned out to be pretty "menyentuh perasaan" moment. I mean, we both didn't see it coming. He said it out of a joke and I took it kinda defensively. The aftermath has made Abg Tofik on the verge of only I know and it has also put me down on my most vulnerable self. It caused some uneasiness between us but we decided to put it behind us and cross our fingers that it will not happen again.

I need to work on ME.

I don't know how others feel, but when I have to talk about my past, I don't quite enjoy it. But most of the times, I tend to talk about the past is because whatever that I am facing or talking or doing at the present, seem to have something to do with the past. Or its just that I needed to weigh the pros and cons of both events. One takes it negatively while I see it as something; well, a bit positive. To me, I feel that when I talk about the past without having to shed a tear or feel upset, I'm over it. Don't you agree? Or maybe this is just me and mine alone. How I see things on my end.

Then again, it may create some negative impressions on others. So I guess I have to curb my words of the past starting from right now. Heh. Apologies if I have affected those based on this theory.

So then today is a new day and we take it like a new chapter. The smses I got from Abg Tofik yesternite makes me all teary... the amount of value he has for me and our relationship seemed priceless. Indirectly, I have somehow made him work harder for our future. I have said it many times, that he is a man full of positivity. He never fails to put every negative things I say back into positivity. He makes me see that life is afterall worth living if you are gonna spend it with that one person who seems to be all worth it.

Yes, humans are imperfect. But if we can take that imperfectness perfectly, what's there to complain? Loving someone means loving their flaws too right? Ok, that sound a bit hard to digest coz most of us wants only happy things and not sad ones. But sadness or sorrows or whatever you call it is inevitable. It's a part and parcel of life. Take it with a pinch of salt they say!

So yeah, I am very much blessed. For all the love I have given before but I end up only getting hurt is now being given back to me. God's will. Alhamdulillah...

"...I am only focusing on 1 thing, dat is 4 us to b lawfully together. I know you have bad experiences and encountered shattered dreams but it makes me even more determine to make it right for you this time..."

He wraps it up by telling me that what he had said in words will only be words if there are no actions done and had seek my patience and co-operation with him so that he is able to put what he has said to me in actions. Only then all will be well and happy. :)

Don't ask me anything. I can only give you my thankful smile.

:: Thought of the day ::
"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage"