A year ago on this very day, the "was" heartbroken girl who happens to be none other than myself, gather up all the courage I had and all the strength I am left - took an enormous step to tell that one man that I would give a chance for both of us to start something new.

That one very special thing which until today, still seem to be like a dream. And that dream is Abg Tofik. *smiles* Well Dee, if you are reading this, you may think that all this while you thought it's you who seem to be dreaming.. guess what? We are in the same boat. It's just that I never told you. *winks*

After going thru' 10yrs of painstaking relationship(s) and losing out a lot in sacrifices, I came to terms that it was a harsh reality that bites mercilessly - but its for a reason. It's only a matter of acceptance for me. Thankfully, all is not lost yet. I am surprised to see myself picking up the pieces and moving forward. Most importantly, I am truly happy. I am at peace, no longer mad at those men who have caused grievous hurt on my little heart. I forgave them and I wish them well on whatever path they have taken.

So to cut the long story short, I am glad that I took the step to give myself another chance in love again. I feel good that I have not deprived Abg Tofik the opportunity to love, though I had rejected him at first knowing that I am in no state for relationships at that time. Still, he took it positively and never once forced or got me on any pressure. Thank you Dee :)

One year has passed and so much have happened. We turn one today. One year of dating as a couple but yet I am already a fiancee to Abg Tofik and soon to be wife, insya'allah. If you must know, I am still overwhelmed by what has happened over the year. What Abg Tofik has done for me. What Bestie have told me. What others have told me. They all share the same thought - that we are meant for each other. Well, I really hope that stays for a long long time alrite.. *smiles*

So before I sign off, here's a little note to Abg Tofik...

Dearest Dee,

Thank you for loving the imperfect me unconditionally. One year have passed and I know that you are always trying your utmost best to keep me happy and you have been great. I too know that you have vowed to our great friends that you give whats only best for me and only I deserve the best. I may have been cranky at times and I am sorry to make you go thru' my mood swings. Thank you for ever being so patient with me.

We are both are working very hard towards our goal and I will too try my utmost best to do what's best for you - that is to keep you happy too. I am actually lost for words as I am too happy for us. All I wanna say is that, don't give up on me yah... and I know that you know that I love you kan kan kan?! *winks*

Until then, let our @T21 journey continue...

Happy Anniversary to us and more to come!

Lots of love,
Ann

:: Thought of the day ::
"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love."